The Truth about Weight Loss - My Weight Loss Journey
In a Bridget Jones Diary style I write about my weight loss journey to share with the world the truth about losing weight. It's definitely not easy, we all know that, but now someone is bold enough to present the real side of the story. I hope that you will enjoy the read and that many of you can relate to stories I share.
Whilst I need to keep it in perspective (i.e. I put on 2 kgs after my last trip)...I'm still 100% inspired!
I'm thinking exercise, I'm thinking salad...I'm thinking NO CARBS!
Most importantly I'm planning out the day with a commitment to eat healthy. It's now a mind-set. It's like starting all over again every day, resetting my thoughts for the day...
I cannot lie...I still have evil thoughts of carbs...chocolate...oh my gosh...things I just need to stop thinking about!
Today I'm eating from the bottom of the triangle only!!!
Ok, so usually if I get as far as packing my gym gear, it doesn't get to see anymore than my suitcase.
This time, I actually used it! I know, incredible right? It's ok, I'm just as shocked. All these baby steps I have made has actually led me down a path I never actually thought I would visit. I actually CHOSE to exercise this afternoon.
We managed to finish on time today and I had the afternoon to myself. After a take away lunch and sitting in an office all day, I felt disgusting. I was heavy in my stomach, I had a headache, a back ache and I just felt lousy!
So I just made the decision that I would go to the gym. I didn't give one thought to "oh my gosh, people are going to look at me" and just made the decision to go. It felt great! I went on one of those cross-trainers and it just felt good.
Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not enrolling in the next tri-athalon or anything, but it just felt like my body was processing the food that I ate at lunch. It got to 10 mins and I was ready to say "yep, surely this counts as exercise!"...but I remembered something my husband told me. As soon as you're ready to give up, keep going! I know, craaaaazy! Apparently it's this "going the extra" that really makes a difference. So I did!
I kept going. I focused on a point on the wall and just kept pumping. Then, get this, an older man got onto the machine next to me and was going faster than me. I don't know about you, but this made me focus on how fast he was going, and made me keep going! I think it's because I had a different focus. I didn't concentrate on the minutes going by, or how hard I was finding it...or that I just didn't want to break out as the 'fat woman who has gone all red in the face'. I was distracted by this old guy going faster than me and I just had to prove a point!
I kept going.
I got to the 18 min mark and from there, it was the longest 2 mins of my life!!! However, I had gotten this far, so I pushed some more...and not to expand on these two minutes anymore...I made it to the 20mins!
I'm home from my business trip and it's time to get back on the diet wagon.
To be honest, I'm nervous about the energy that's required to be on a diet. It's always on my mind, with everything I eat, whether it be calorie counting or noting how much water I'm drinking. It's exhausting!
The only thing I am confident about is the fact that I need to go back to healthy eating! Eating out for breakfast, lunch and dinner as well as drinking every night...I'm dreading the "weigh-in" tomorrow morning!
It's been really hard getting back on track after the festivities of my birthday. Food is just so good! I've found it hard to resist pasta, chocolate, wine and oh my gosh...cheese!
Add the fact that I'm getting my "monthly friend" soon AND the fact that I've been working late (and therefore couldn't be bothered to cook something healthy)...and wa-lah! BLOW OUT LIKE A WHALE!!!!!!!!!!!
Why can't dieting be easy? Why can't I just think diet and the weight just drops off?
Or perhaps I should research this 1930's tapeworm diet?
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